twenty-one
Well it didnt go as i have always wished it would :( i know my friends are busy and all and its really the thought that counts and i am really thankful to them for taking me out on an expensive dinner :’) they actually made my birthday look less pathetic than it was on the day itself :’) they mean so much to me, those 2 special people in my life. idk what i’d do without them.
i have always wanted to get a surprise birthday celebration with people appearing from no where screaming HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAH!!! yeah i’ve always imagined that happening to me one day. i really hope it will happen. guess i will have to wait for next year :(
i dont even know why typing these out is actually making cry wtf i know im old and all and i shouldnt be so petty abt all these. i know. bt like honestly i am still a girl at heart and everybody wants a real happy birthday cake and presents and wtv shits. i wished my family had done that for me. well at least nt forget my birthday. i feel sad really sad but no one really knows i am. nobody will understand. i always believe that birthdays are suppose to be special and memorable and not sad. with ppl taking lots of pictures. throwing cakes and popping stupid stuffs.
GREAT NOW I CANT STOP CRYING ARGHHHHH ITS FLOWING NONSTOP EVEN AS I AM TYPING RN UGH HALP
i’ll try my best to make sure i celebrate my friends birthdays and make them feel loved and special :’) i want to. i want to see people be happy as they age a year older.
i hope people dont forget me. i dont want. fuck this is making me so sad. i should stop typing. its making me cry even more.
i love boys who are charming, like his not sooo good looking but hes not ugly but he has something about him. just cute. that kind of thing. and boys who are just so relax about everything. like forever on chill pill. omg i love. i wish i have a boyfriend just exactly like i described :) i would rant and be crazy infront of him and there he is just smiling and listening. sometimes i think i like boys who dont really talk about intellectual stuff like idk dood so boring and what a turn off. i dont need a guy to be a smart ass. i just need a chill funny happy-go-lucky kind of guy. everything is ok. no stress nothing.
THAT WOULD BE SO COMFORTING :’) LIKE IF I MEET ONE LIKE THAT I WLD TOTALLY BE FREE OF WORRIES AND STRESS WHENEVER I SEE HIM. YEAH, I THINK I NEED THAT KIND OF GUY. TOTALLY MY KIND AND SUITED FOR ME HAHA.
one day, maybe i’ll meet someone like that :)
shit i think i might cry on my birthday, again like last year wtf. i really wish he could spent more time with me despite all his army shits. and seeing him going out with his friends kinda makes me a tiny bit jealous. haisz.
i denounce you no longer my best friend :( i am sad. really really sad.
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